Tomorrow ( Monday ) our facilitator is coming for her last visit this year. I'm actually hoping for us to be done school ( books etc.) by the end of May and I'd like to think of some fun physical activities..purposeful activities for June to end grade 7. Usually by this time I know what we are doing for the next year but this year, I don't know. I have some books I want to take a look at. I need a few hours to spend at Cher to see what else is out there. Math is a big one we have to change up. I'm not feeling a rush at this time though. I plan to enjoy our time off this summer for sure.
As for me...I'm continuing to muddle through the weeks. Some days are better than others and I'm learning what I need to do. Counseling continues to go well. I'm just so fortunate that my counselor ( as my Pastor ) is patient with all the questions I have which are mainly spiritual. It's amazing how much or should I say, how little one knows especially after being born again for over 20 years. It's quite discouraging but I'm planning on coming out the other side, I have to. I continue to fight the depression. It sucks so bad. I'm so amazed at what I have shared and with the wisdom and grace that my Pastor has with me. I find myself constantly in awe that I can be treated so kindly by both him and his wife. I'm pretty blessed. Weird thing about it, if I didn't need the counseling, I wouldn't be getting to know them like I am. Crazy ways that God works. Perhaps one day I will be able to thank Him?
An update on my memorization: I know the first two verses of Psalm 42 in both English and Spanish. It is hard learning it in Spanish but as I go, I'm learning a bit about the language itself so that's cool. The whole idea of focusing on it has been awesome. It's exactly what I need. I don't find myself scrambling so bad when I have panic or anxiety attacks....I just think of this Psalm and it almost works like a guard rail for me. Keeps me steady until I'm able to move on.
Life is what life is and what I'm learning is it's a gift. A precious precious gift. See you later my friends...God Bless you!!