Saturday, August 30, 2014

Faith: Believing the Truth

Knowing that it isn't about feelings but in believing the Truth and God's Word and what He says about you....that's faith and going one step further believing it when you feel the complete opposite.  God is faithful to the brokenhearted and the hurting.  

Friday, August 29, 2014

Almost September 2014

Where has the time gone?  Where has the summer gone?  It's been a while since I've blogged and hopefully I will get back into it.  I have been looking for a " 30 Day " thingy to follow since I need some ideas and I think I found one.  On my Kindle I have a book called 31 Bible Verses About Faith-To Keep You Overcoming! One of my biggest pitfalls, I believe, is lack of faith and trust in God.  I find it crazy that I feel that way especially since I see Him as Freedom.  He is what sets us truly free so I am praying by doing something like this, that I will be able to put my trust more and more into my precious Jesus.  I will choose faith, worship and praise.  See you tomorrow! 
Blessings there!

Monday, April 14, 2014

Crossroads Part 2

As I wait and anticipate the big date ( April 21 ) to start writing my story, I can't help but take notes in my head.  Part of me wants to do that on paper right now, but I won't and I refuse.  I was at a retreat this weekend and it was all about our stories; telling them, writing them, sharing them.  Our speaker spoke of an experience that she found herself alone for three hours a week and she started talking to God about herself.  She shared with God all about her.  Yes, God knows us already.  Of course He does, He created us, BUT He still wants us to share with Him about ourselves.  It's like having a conversation with a friend.  Tell them all about us.  This got me thinking and I decided that when I start writing my story, I will write it to  God.  Not only will I share with Him but I will ask Him questions and will most likely be very annoying.  lol  When I get going with my questions, I sometimes feel like a 4 year old who asks 437 questions a day ( I just read that on facebook so it must be true).  It's probably pretty close.  lol

Some of you may wonder why I'm starting then.  Why not now while I'm thinking about it?  Well, it's part of my personality to be able to have some kind of plan.  They usually end up awry but I need a starting point.  It is what it is and so am I.

I will leave you with a daily message that I am looking at today:

God delights in me and He loves me simply because I am His.  Know this Truth friends and remember it. 

Monday, April 7, 2014

Crossroads Part 1

I have been looking for a certain book about a particular issue/s.  I have looked and checked all my favorite Christian Authors and beyond and have found nothing.  All the secular articles and book excerpts I've read about the subject leave me feeling empty and doesn't seem to me that they are the way that God would want me handle the issues.  God is number one in my life.  At the same time, I still believe in common sense and believe God wants me to have it while I think about decisions and choices that have to be made.

This all being said, I wonder if this is the book that God wants me to write?  About a year or so ago I gave all my hopes and dreams to God.  My reasoning for that, my prayer to God was that I wanted my dreams, my passions to line up with His plans for my life.  In the meantime since then, I learned more about Him in His Word.  I learned and continue to learn tonnes of new things in counseling.  There is no end to what we can study in the Bible about God.  In fact, I get overwhelmed and when that happens I step back too far so I've been learning to keep it simple.

I call myself a writer though I haven't written much lately.  The last few weeks I have had several instances of hints that perhaps  it is time to write my story.  I think about it and it scares me to death but maybe it's time for me to take down the wall of fear that is surrounding my heart and surrender my fears to God.  Yes, I know what I'm supposed to do but for some reason acceptance is hard for me.  Acceptance in any area really.  To me, acceptance isn't just acknowledging something, but it has to change your life.  Even for those of us who have been dealing with things a certain way ( that doesn't work ) the whole idea of accepting something new ( and the fact that it just might work) is the hardest and scariest thing to do.  It's easy to be in our comfort zone of just accepting things for what they have become.  Change is hard, but it necessary especially if you want to be in God's will for your life. I want my life to reflect Christ in everything I say and do. 

I'm at a crossroad right now and it's time to make some decisions.  It's time to write.

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

The Answer is Truly Jesus

Interesting how every question I have about my life, my circumstances my faith all have the same answer:  Christ and who I am in Him.

I find being  Christian can be really hard some days.  I'm so bad at it.  I've been born again for coming on 19 years and only in the last almost two years am I getting a grasp on what it's all about.  Not about how to be one just about on what being one is. 

My depression brought me to counseling and through that I also get a lot of spiritual counseling too.  So much is new to me and I find that odd but for the first time ever, I have HOPE.  I may never be able to grasp " Christianity " but I'm learning to grasp God's love for me.  That is so huge for me.  In fact, it scares me.

Learning that God is actually a loving God really blew me away.  I saw it and learned it the first time this week and today I got a chance to talk about it with my Pastor.  As Christians we seem to get so many of our ideas from others and from Traditions rather than right out of the Bible.  Never mind those footnotes at the bottom of the Bible.  I think I will start using a Bible with no footnotes.  I discovered this week just how much they can affect you and not for the good.  They were written by "man" or should I say " a couple men or women " whereas the Bible was written by God.  I'd rather learn from Him.

Anyway, Jesus is the answer to all my questions.  Who I am in Christ and believing it is the key to a happy and joyful future even in the midst of circumstances I can't control.  This gives me HOPE.  It gives me hope knowing that I don't have to be downer my whole life and that there is indeed a purpose for my life.

Saturday, February 8, 2014

Teaching Prayer

Wow, it's been a longtime since I have blogged.  I think the biggest reason is trying to understand and know why I blog.  Is it for me?  Is it so Alexis can be glorified for her intelligence and grace?  UGH!  That's why.  I have a tendency to overthink.  I go all the way to the left and then all the way to the right.  Focus and Balance, unfortunately, still aren't a huge part of my vocabulary and life but I'm learning.  ANYWAY... to God be the Glory, Great things He has done and continue to do in and through me.  I praise Him for that.

I praise Him for the opportunity to teach Sunday School.  On a normal day, 4 kids and on a full house day, 7 kids.  I love them dearly....truly I do.  I'm learning so much from them.  A few Sundays ago God spoke to me Sunday Morning that I was to switch my lesson.  I go to church Sunday afternoons so I quickly changed things up and got prepared.  I was to start teaching on prayer.  I am using two text books.  The Bible and a book called " The Power of a Praying Kid " by Stormie Omartian.

Prayer is something I struggle with.  As the last two weeks have gone by God has revealed little things to me and is showing me more information, more things to share with the kids and more things that I need to know.  He knows way better than me what I need.  Just because I want something so bad, or I want a situation to change, doesn't mean that it's part of God's plan.  Even if it's a really hard situation.  God sees the big picture.  It's a hard pill to swallow sometimes and it seems like I choke on that pill a lot. 

Not only do we as adults struggle, but our kids struggle too.  My goal is to show them and teach them that we all serve a God who is approachable anytime, anywhere, anyhow.  Not only that, we can go to Him for anything.  My goal also is to show them how worthy He is of Praise, Glory and Thanks.  Not only is He there to answer our prayers according to His will, but first He is there to be praised and worshiped.  Prayer isn't just a matter of asking for things, it is about Worship.

So, that's where it's at.  Again, I thank God for this amazing opportunity and for the fact that I can learn about prayer through the eyes of a kid.  I have them until grade 6 and then they move on.  They enter some pretty tough years. 

To God be the GLORY!